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Farhana's day

2006-06-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

Farhana won the 4th place for 'Pertandingan bayi sihat' today. saja-saja nak meriahkan suasana tapi tak sangka dapat 4th place...kira ok lah tu. it was held at Dewan Bandaraya Kinta Barat, Batu Gajah. My mother in-law was one of the AJk...so it was her idea lah to enroll Farhana. She won herself a comel piala...a hamper and a certificate. We was there since 9 till 2pm. penat betul. Luckily, Khairina and Farhana enjoyed their day. Nobody cried or merengek...but mommy and daddy really 'kepenatan'!

Condolences to Rose

2006-06-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

received a message from rose. It was a shock to know that her father had passed away. Tried to call her a few times on her hp but couldn't get through. Rose, I hope that you're doing ok. except this as 'ketentuan allah'. yang hidup pasti mati. tabahkan hati dan banyak bersabar. Semoga Allah SWT mengurniakan rahmat kepada Allahyarham, serta menempatkan Allahyarham di sisinya. AMIN YA RABBAL 'ALAMIN.

Insights To A Mother

2006-06-09T14:38:00.000+08:00

Somebody said it takes about six weeks to get back to normal after
you've had a baby, That Somebody doesn't know that once you're a mother, "Normal," is history.

Somebody said you learn how to be a mother by instinct, That Somebody never took a three-year-old shopping.

Somebody said being a mother is boring ......
That Somebody never rode in a car driven by a teenager with no
driver's permit.

Somebody said if you're a "good" mother, your child will "turn out
good." That Somebody thinks a child comes with directions and a
guarantee.

Somebody said "good" mothers never raise their voices .
That Somebody never came out the back door just in time to see her
child hit a golf ball through the neighbor's kitchen window.

Somebody said you don't need an education to be a mother. That
Somebody never helped a fourth grader with her math.

Somebody said you can't love the fifth child as much as you love the
first. That Somebody doesn't have five children.

Somebody said a mother can find all the answers to her child-rearing
questions in the books That Somebody never had a child stuff beans up
his nose or in his ears.

Somebody said the hardest part of being a mother is labor and delivery .

That Somebody never watched her "baby" get on the bus for the first
day of kindergarten or on a plane headed for military "boot camp."

Somebody said a mother can do her job with her eyes closed and one
hand tied behind her back . That Somebody never organized four giggling Brownies to sell cookies.

Somebody said a mother can stop worrying after her child gets married

... That Somebody doesn't know that marriage adds a new son or daughter-in-law to a mother's heartstrings. Somebody said a mother's job is done when her last child leaves home ..... That Somebody never had grandchildren.

Something to share

2006-06-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

Lovely poem to share with all of you. These are the things that there are times we overlook.

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me, too;
I wasn't really watching for you."
Wewere very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said good-bye.
But at home a different story is told,
how we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake that night in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you
use, but the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
You never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I was feeling very small,
And then my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found them, out by the tree".
I picked them because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like them, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

To Riza with Love

2006-05-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

Because I Know You Love Me

I loved him when he said hello
And today I love him still
I'd love him if he said goodbye
But I hope he never will.

Everything I am today
All this good you see
Was brought out by a man
Who always believed in me.

Every time his lips touch mine
And when he holds me throughout the night
I feel warmth inside me heart
Because its never felt this right

His eyes melt away my doubts
I'm vulnerable in his arms
He knows how to make me smile
With his irresistible charm.

Every single flaw he has
Makes him perfect in every way
And all the fears I used to have
Have finally gone away

No one has ever been this close
To making me fall so hard
So please be there to catch me
Because I'm letting down me guard

I know you'll never hurt me
Because I know how much you care
So I'm making room inside my heart
Where you can stay in there

Because I know you loved me when you said hello
And I know today you love me still
Id love you even if you said goodbye
But I know you never will.

Qada' and Qadar

2006-05-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

it's been quite a while since the last time I updated my blog. Tak keja pun still tak da masa to do so. I guess being a housewife you are working 24/7. 365 days a year...none stop. My cousin just gave birth to a baby boy last week. He's now 7 days old. She wanted a girl so much since her first was already a boy and me instead wanted to have a boy. But hey, can you choose? This is all what you call 'rezeki'. It's a gift from Allah and Alhamdullillah, wether it's a girl or a boy as long they are healthy it should be ok. I have a friend, she has 4 children, 3 boys and a girl. But unfortunately all the boys suffered from Thalesemia. 2 of them had passed away few years ago. She was so devastated. She quit her job and now paying full attention to the other baby boy who'e still struggling for his life. he's been in and out the hospital most of the time. Sometimes i wonder if I'm in her shoes I don't think I can be as strong as she is. She's learning to accept the fate and even she lost two of her precious sons she still can smile and laugh to your silly jokes. She's amazing. yesterday I got to know that her 8 months old baby boy was admited in the ICU. When I called her she was so calm explaining to me the situation. I guess she begins to realise that this is part of 'qada' and qadar'. To my friend Salihah, I pray for your little baby boy...be strong and Insy-Allah, things will turn out ok for you and your family. To Ariff and Harrith, Al-Fatihah.

Happy Mother's Day

2006-05-13T03:16:00.000+08:00

MOMS...Happy Mother's Day!!! I have to admit that i've been feeling a bit sentimental when ever i think about mothers. Just the other day i dreamt about my mom. i miss her dearly eventhough we talk almost every night on the phone. i email to her every week and she's just two hours drive from my place...USJ5 subang jaya. I reminded my self when i went through pregnancies and labours of my two girls. The memories of the moments are still fresh in me. The morning sickness, sleepless nights, emotional unstable, terrible backaches...not forgetting the strength and courage gathered during the labour...it's a 50%-50% experiance. This is what we call a sacrifice that every mothers have to go through to bring a life into this world. So, to all mothers out there...once again, happy mother's day!

The Working days

2006-05-10T13:40:00.001+08:00

By reading a friend's blog...(he's a good writer) titled 'Work Away From Work' reminded me when I was working before evnthough it only last for 4 months I felt like I've been working for years none stop! By the time i reached home i'm glad that i'm still alive, breathing and fo course the whole day stressed suddenly disappear when i saw my baby girl waiting for me in the car. at that time she was 6 months old. when the first time i started working it took me quite a while to adjust myself not to be around her. after 4 months working i decided to quit my job and followed hubby to perak. and from that day, i'm jobless and suprisingly i'm getting tired of that too! now i have two little angels acompany me everyday. they are the greatest remedy to almost everything.

Happy Birthday!

2006-05-08T09:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday...and I'm a year older! Today I just turn 28 and I'm now in my late 20's. It seems like only yesterday I celebrated my 16th birthday. Days just passes by. In another 10 yrs time, Khairina will be 12 and farhana will be 11. and I'll be 38. Am i too old to be a mother to 12 & 11 year old? Or I'm just being ridiculous? That's what Riza thinks... The funniest thing is that my granma called and she was telling me that I need another child...(told her that two is enough) , a boy to complete the family. Ok let put in this way, at least we want to give the two girls some space to grow up so if I'm thinking of having another child it will be in another at least 4 yrs to come...and at that time i'm already 32 and riza's 42! Gosh, I should have got married earlier...hehehehehe...(that's ridiculous!) HELP!

Sisters

2006-05-08T09:06:00.000+08:00

Hello friends

2006-05-05T16:47:00.000+08:00

Suprisingly, after lack of updates lasting almost months, so many things had taken place within the particular time. I had to many things to tell, to talk about and at the same time to share with all of you. I need a laptop, desprately plus with wifi internet connection, where I could just log in anytime i want...and of course when ever I'm free...i don't get that much often now. So what happen for the last few months...let see, my life getting a bit hectic, with two little girls clinging all over me...I'm desprately trying to loose weight but still looking like humpty dumpty, woke up early in the morning and sleep very late at night, milk and diapers cost a bomb and hey, i'm getting a year older soon! that's really matters now. hehehehe... there's a lot of ups and downs and higs and lows. but the main thing that really happen to me is the burnout of the year. I think i've been having an emotional breakdown for the past 3 months and still in the stage of recovering. but hey, i'm still ok and i'm still straight! just that i spent most of the night thinking about what will happen to me and to my life. there are times i feel bored of only being a housewife where most of the time i spent my time around the house, do the laundry, cook, clean, taking care of the kids, watching tv...blablabla...(nothing interesting bout the blas) and go to bed, then the same thing happen again the next day. where am i going too? my husband travels a lot...to me that's very interesting. i love to travel since i was a little girl. been doing lots of traveling during my tenage days. but now...sigh. Luckily I have the two little princess with me...at least everyday they put a smile on my face. thinking of continuing my studies next year...but still, it just another dream. anyway, luckily i have a good husband, love him very much and i have two great kids...can't live without them...

Two Little Princess

2006-02-11T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hello friends, i'm back. and these are the latest pictures of Khairina and Farhana. Khairina will be two next month and Farhana is already 4 months old and she's about to crawl.

Daddy and Me

2005-11-21T16:52:00.000+08:00

When I was growing up I'm very close to my dad than my mom. But we spent most of our time with Mom since she's a full time house wife. Well, actually I have the answer to that...with Daddy evrything is YES and OK but with Mummy there's always lots of "why this" and "why that", "what's this" and "what's that"...and of course there lots of 'No' then 'yes'. And that's what happen to Khairina. She's so attach to Riza and when ever I scold her she'll be running around calling her daddy for rescue. She decided to sleep with daddy everynight and sit on his lap while watching tv. I guess between a father and a daughter, there's always been a special bond attached. No matter what...that's so sweet.

My Little Angels

2005-11-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hello there sisters, sending my love from USJ 5, Subang Jaya. After for almost 3 months in Sarawak, now we're all back in Semenanjung. Things now a bit different, I'm now a mother to two little girls...life is so much different now from what it was 2 years ago. No more teh tarik till 2 am, no more late night movies and no more good night sleep for another 2 years.

Well, whatever it is I'm happy with my life...I feel complete. They can be such a handful, but they are my little angels. Khairina is getting attch to her new sister. She will kiss her good morning and kiss her good night. She will help me to change the diapers and to look after the baby while I'm not around. I still remember when the first time we brought Farhana home from the hospital, Khairina was a bit confused...refusing to sleep with me and trying to keep a distance from us. I was a bit worried at first but it only lasted just for a few days...then she was back to normal. But her 'manja' is getting worse! No matter what...they are my little angels...yesterday, today and forever.

Waiting and waiting...

2005-09-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

hello friends...happy to hear from all of you. by the way, i feel like a time a BOMB!!! waiting and waiting...received a big pakage from my mother in-law which contains a big box of jamu!!! arrrrgghh....scarry. well, thinking of how desprate i am to go back to my figure, i accept it willingly. and don't forget bout the 'barut'...anything will do, ANYTHING at all!

Photos from Sarawak

2005-09-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hello friends, these are some latest photos that i would like to share with all of you. The photos was taken this morning. We went to the water fall which I'm not so sure the name of it but what I'm very sure is that I look soooo....like The Humpty Dumpty!!! Don't you think so? Aaaarghhh!!!Anyway, Khairina really had a good time, as you can see...she looked so sexy, hee...hee...(she'll never gonna forgive me for taking all her nakies pictures!)

from Sarawak with love

2005-09-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

hello friends, wow it's been quite a looooooooong time since my last update. I'm still in sarawak, having a good time, making lots of new friends. Sarawak is a nice place especially where I'm staying now...Lawas situated near to Brunei and near to Sabah. I'm now counting my days since my due date is just around the corner...next week!!! Riza's at the mean time is still in Tawau...busy running his business and I'm hoping that he'll be here when the time comes. I'm still not so sure about where I should give birth coz I have two choices, lawas sarawak or Sipitang, Sabah. Well, you'll know when the time comes. I really hope that things will turn out ok and we'll be back in Semenanjung before Raya.

Looking back at the old days

2005-07-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there, today while going through some old stuffs I terjumpa some of my story books collection since I was a baby. So I decided to pass on to Khairna and hoping that one day she will enjoy all the books as much as I do. Most of it was given to me by my dad. I have a father who loves to read. He doesn't talk much but he's an interesting person to get to know with. He still keeps most of his Ridest Digest Magazine since 1962 at my grands place in KB. So he always wanted us to follow his footsteps. I enjoy reading too, tapi tak lah seteruk my dad. He's a walking dictionary. So today Khairina spent most of her time in her grans room listening to all kinds of fairy tales and nursery rhymes. Suprisingly, she enjoyed it very much. When I looked at her, she reminds me of the old days when I was a little girl. Dad loves to tell stories and mom loves to sing. I grew up with Lobo, The Bee Gees, Bread, Jackson 5, The Police, Kenny Rogers, Cliff Richard, The Beetles, Rockwell, Lionel Richie, Broery Marantika, Suhaimi Meor Hassan, Alleycats, Sudirman and many many more...and untill now I still listen to these kind of songs. I'm NOT really into the modern music...drive me upside down most of the time. There are times I wonder, what things will be like for my children when they grew up. It's defanately gonna be different from mine...

Going to the Paradise

2005-07-23T11:07:00.000+08:00

I always love writting short stories but before this I only have one person who I always share with...Riza. But now I have sisters around me that I would like to share my stories with. Well, I used to send my stories to Ridest Digest but never been publish before. I keep on trying...maybe one day. I would love to hear your comments. Do feel free to do so ok. Wait for my mail...
Riza just arrived last night. He's taking us to Lawas next week. I'm gonna miss you guys alot while I was there. In Lawas there's no internet connection except for if you go to the CC. So, patah kaki la I kat sana. My bro's laptop pulak most probaly kena masuk hospital coz been attack by virus. Gosh...sudah la jatuh di timpa tangga! Anyway, I'm looking forward to the trip...desprately need a holiday. Last night I had a long talk with my mom. She adviced me that it's as always better for us to be away from the family, especially when we're already married. Sometimes tu susah kalau dah stay dekat2. We tend to get into lots of crisis...from diff angle. She gave me lots of examples and I really agreed with mom. She told me that she loves all her children very much and as a mother she always wanted the best for her children. We all do right? That is why I'm really looking forward to get the job in Lawas. It's gonna be fun. I don't know bout Riza...but I believe that he'll agree with me. I just can't wait to go there next week. And of course I will keep in touch with all of u. Pray for me, ok.

Demam DH

2005-07-20T12:10:00.000+08:00

I'm looking forward for the next episode of DH. Gosh...I'm hooked to it. Am I one of them...naaahhh, don't think so but I really wish that I can live in a posh area where I have lots of wierd people as my neighbours. But defanately looking at the Scavo's family (lynette) really scares me. How can she manage to handle those boys??? My dad loves DH very much. He enjoys it more than my mom. Riza..? not so sure yet coz he's still in Indonesia. I think all the singles should watch this series...lots of good lesson to learn!

Living in a Pineapple under the sea

2005-07-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

Have you ever watch The Sponge Bob Square Pants cartoon on ASTRO? Hey, it is very interesting and me and dad enjoys watching it everyday. Gosh...once again, I'll never grew up! Hahaha...

Took Khairina to the playground..as usuall and today while running around the park she fell off and scratch her knees. Dengan muka yang sedih she came to me and asked me to clean her off (in her own language). I told her that we need to go home to clean up but she had this brilliant idea where she deep both of her hands dlm lopak air hujan and ...wallaaa, both of her knees dah bersih! wow, kids nowadays so cerdik. Then she went back running around with all her little friends happily.

Dedicated to...ME!

2005-07-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

Your Touch

As I sit in the whirlpool
With scented candles burning
Watching shadows casting
From the glimmering light

The fragrance of roses
That fills the room
While sipping red wine
Thats so elegant and divine

My heart skips a beat
Like the first time we met
As she swept me off my feet
and kissed me tenderly so sweet

I remember her touch
As she touched my skin
I still feel the tingle
That's deep within

With the heat of passion
Building up inside
I feel my body quiver
like dynamite... inside

As I glanced out the window
And saw lights coming through
I stepped out of the whirlpool
and my body felt cool

I don on my robe
the color of blue
Then I heard a knock
and... I knew it was you!

My Favourite Song

2005-07-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

THROUGH THE YEARS

Kenny Rogers

I can't remember when you weren't there

When I didn't care for anyone but you

I swear we've been through everything there is

Can't imagine anything we've missed

Can't imagine anything the two of us can't do

Through the years, you've never let me down

You turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found

I've found with you ... Through the years

I've never been afraid, I've loved the life we've made

And I'm so glad I've stayed, right here with you

Through the years

I can't remember what I used to do

Who I trusted, who I listened to before

I swear you taught me everything I know

Can't imagine needing someone so

But through the years it seems to me

I need you more and more

Through the years, through all the good and bad

I knew how much we had, I've always been so glad

To be with you ... Through the years

It's better every day, you've kissed my tears away

As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you

Through the years

Through the years, when everything went wrong

Together we were strong, I know that I belong

Right here with you ... Through the years

I never had a doubt, we'd always work things out

I've learned what love's about, by loving you

Through the years

Through the years, you've never let me down

You've turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found

I've found with you ... Through the years

It's better every day, you've kissed my tears away

As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you

Through the years!

Need a BIG HUG!

2005-07-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

Sedihnya...Riza'a coming back from Sarawak tomorrow...but wanna know why I feel sad? He'll be going off to Indonesia right after that. So we're just going to have a short meeting at The KLIA before he leaves to Indonesia. This is the time where I miss the old days. We used to 'lepak' with ecah other till 3 to 4 am in the morning or watching our favourite movies together. Can we have back the good times or it will just gonna fly off and leave us only with the memories? Sometimes I wonder why things have to change? Is this what you call as 'This is what life is all about...about CHANGING'? Or it is just me..for being extra sensitive? Well, you guys might think that I'm just being ridiculous...don't you? When you love somebody too much...it will hurt sometimes. I'm so SELFISH...haa..haa..haa!

The Saturday Blues

2005-07-16T11:16:00.000+08:00

Well, nothing much to do for today...except for will be watching The Lost, marathon series from 12 am till 5 pm!!! wow, will be stuck in front of the tv the whole day. 'Pejam celik' i'm now in my 29th weeks of pregnancy. Another 11 more weeks to go. Still remember when I was pregnant to Khairina, excited ada, takut pun ada. But this time, I feel much better and much secure. Takut -takut tu biasalah especially when you start thinking bout the labour...(berdiri bulu roma!), but everything is a MIRACLE! Last night I was trying to talk to Khairina bout her new sister/brother that will be arriving soon. She looked interested in what I'm telling her but whether she understand me or not, I'm not so sure. Some people think that it is not so wise for you to have children in such a small gap (my mom thinks that way too!) but everything have their own pros and cons. Looking at my two step children...Fitri(11) and Qistina(10), they grew up beatifully and they are close to each other. But when Sabrina arrived 3 years later, they team up together and start to bullied the little sister. hahaha...that's the cons!!!

So sweet :-)

2005-07-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Just received a call from Riza...he'll be back on Tuesday (maybe). Anyway, happy to hear from him and especially when he told me that he misses me a lot! Miss you too dear, very much.

*mwahs*

Battle of the diapers

2005-07-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

I still remeber when my brothers was still a baby, Huggies diapers cost a bomb! So most of them are wearing Pampers instead of Huggies. But now Huggies are a lot cheaper compared from Pampers. But still Huggies are much much much more BETTER!

Khairina only needs 3 pieces of Huggies a day but 4 to 5 pcs of Pampers a day. A pack of Huggies (L 72pcs) cost RM 34.50 and a pack of Pampers (L 72) cost RM 38. So which one is better...Huggies of course. The scariest part of all is that once another baby arrive...which is going to be soon...everything will double up!

Friends are the most precious TREASURE

2005-07-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

A Vow of A Friend

I told you I'll be your friend
And I'll never break my vow
It's going to cause a lot of sorrow
But it's better than living a lie...

I would have to get used to it somehow
Hear you talk about the love you feel
While I sulk in the depths of my silence
Finding comfort in my cogent dreams...

I would tell myself I can make it
I can finish life's long race
I'll convince myself I am happy
With the thought that you're okay...

Your pain will be my pain
I would give without expecting
I'll be selfless, I'll be strong
I'll build bridges, be forgiving...

I would exalt the world's beauty
I'll drown myself in its wonder
I would look beyond my horizon
Find peace till the hurting's over...

But I guess, right now, what's important
Is that I'll keep my promise
I'll swear to God, I'll be here
When you call and when I'm needed...

I shall wish you all the best
Our borrowed life has to offer
I'll pray to God to keep you safe
And keep you warm in His shelter...

I shall let go of the pain and fear
And though not easy, I'll find life's meaning
My existence won't be spent on a love that's lost
It'll be spent on meaningful living...

Matters Of The Heart

2005-07-14T00:06:00.000+08:00

Ruminations on love and relationship:

Men always want to be women's first love - women like to be a man's last romance

Love seem the swiftest, but it is the slowest of all growth. No man or woman really knows what a perfect love untill they have been married a quarter of a century.

Being deply in love with someone give you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage.

Make love NOT war!

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give - which is everything.

So, what do you think?

Never too old for anything!

2005-07-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

It's has always been The Pooh Bear for me since I was a little girl and now Pooh Bear has been part of Khairina's life. We went to Subang Parade for dinner and as usual I will take Khairina for a little tour in The Toys r' us. She fell in love with Barney, Bob The Builder, Barbie and Little Tikes push car but I managed to get her eyes off all the toys except for one...The Pooh Bear. Pity her...but pity mummy more coz the Pooh Bear gonna cost me RM 150 !!! So, pujuk punye pujuk...I decided to get her a VCD, A Christmas for Pooh. As long as it's still The Pooh Bear, then it should be ok. When we arrived home, Khairina was already asleep. So who end up watching 'A Christmas For Pooh',? Me of course! I'm never too old for The Pooh Bear. Such an adorable character.

My lovable sisters

2005-07-13T11:47:00.000+08:00

In the days and weeks after I met these two wonderful people, or let me put it in my own words...my lovable sisters, many beautiful moments and memories that I've shared with them. Like what i quote in The Story Of Us, 'I believe meeting online helps you fall in love from the inside out'...that's what actually happen when I met my two sisters, CK and Sheryl. It is a small measure of comfort...lots of love that in the worst of times, the best qualities of human spirit can even flourish!

A beautiful of pic of my sis and my little yasmin!

Our Happy Family

2005-07-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

The Story of Us

2005-07-12T21:41:00.000+08:00

I had never truly let myself fall for anyone before until I met a guy that changed everything for me. It was a bit too much for me to handle for a while but then I opened up and allowed my self to fall in love with him. How was I to know that within a month my love would fight for his life. I had honestly given up on finding true love, but I can honestly say that I have found it with him. I have learned to trust with him. He is there for me through whatever I go through. This man is my angel sent from up above. A lot of emptiness inside, knowing where your heart is and trying to replace it with someone else, just doesn't get it. I know that I am deeply in love with this man; he has shown me nothing but respect, and love and understanding.

It was love at the first sight. I fell in love with Riza, 32 who I met on the ICQ chat room. We chatted once then we're hooked on the phone every night, 4 to hrs a day before we actually meet two weeks later. At that very moment I know what I feel and I would walk to the ends of the earth and back again just to spend a few seconds with him. I was so madly in love with him and a kiss from no one else could possibly make me feel as good as it does when he kisses me…one day, I told my self. While talking to him I always keep on thinking it would be wonderful if he were my husband. The talking-on-the-phone session started to be more regular and I would look forward to hearing from him. We talked about marriages, children, dreams but not a single actual word about marrying each other had ever passed between us.

Two weeks later, it was an unsettling night at The Vistana Hotel, Kuala Lumpur and me (I was 22 at that time) was especially nervous. That was the first time we met each other. I was happy, nervous and definitely I was a bit scared. But I decided to take the risk and to get to know the men that I fell in love with more. Riza was married before but it only last for 7 years. He had 3 wonderful children, a boy and two girls. I have no problem to accept them as my very own and I'm ready to give all my love to them. It comes in a package…when I marry Riza, I'll be a wife and automatically I become a mother. It's wonderful. We have the same ideas about everything and like doing the same things. That night was the first night we spent together. Nothing really happen accept for we talked the whole night while snuggling up in bed in each others arm, sharing each others stories, listening to each others secrets and looked into each others eyes looking for a sincererity and that was the night he proposed to me… I accept it of course! Of course this is one of the most romantic moment of all times. Riza made me realize that love is a feeling so strong it can affect our lives irrevocably. Love definitely transform my life and make me most fortunate and it make me a better human being. I feel very sure that he is THE ONE and want to spend the rest of my life loving him, and into forever.

Riza is so special, very loving, caring, and has the most gorgeous smile -his whole face lights up. We know each other's every word before we say it, we think the same way, we like doing the same things, eat the same foods (& hate the same ones), laugh at the same things, we hold hands and kiss tenderly every time we are alone together, everything just tells me that we are meant to be together, even the way that we met, it all leads to fate. We never would have met if we didn't both look in the internet, even though we live in the same suburb, we probably have seen each other around in the past, but not NOTICED each other if you know what I mean.

14^th of December 2000 was a date to remember. It was a simple ceremony but full of beautiful memories. I'm now a wife and I just can't stop thinking whether 'is this all just a dream?' Marrying Riza was a dream come through. Most important matter of all is that we love each others very much. We are now coming up to our 5th years anniversary. We've had some teething problems, but our love has always come out on top. We had our first baby girl last year and she just celebrated her first birthday last March and we are now waiting for our second baby that will be arriving soon! By the end of this year I'm going to be a mother to 5 children.

I believe meeting online helps you fall in love from the inside out. I first fell in love with his heart and mind. We are the best friends and sometimes that is a hard task to achieve while dating. When someone starts dating it usually starts out as infatuation. But when you fall in love with someone you have never meet face to face, you have lots of time to get to know the true person. I am willing to give this relationship everything I have. Yes I am still scared of the unknown but everyday he gives me more reason to believe. I could write pages and pages of how wonderful this person is but I think everyone can tell that I LOVE HIM. I hope and pray that this is just the beginning to my never ending story. I didn't believe in fate until I met my husband.

To Riza, my soul mate, my lover and my best friend in the world, I love you forever and I just want to thank you for not giving up on "us". We are going to have a happy life together, a forever happiness,,,, how do I know this? Because it is in my heart and follow my heart is what I am going to do. Thank you for loving me, and standing by me, and not giving up. I love you.

-- Anne Bahrin

Special People

2005-07-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

SPECIAL PEOPLE

The special people in this world are the most
precious and the most appreciated
people of all. No matter what happens, they
always understand. They go a million miles out
of their way. They hold your hand.

They bring you smiles, when a smile is exactly
what you need. They listen, and they hear what
is said in the spaces between the words. They
care, and they let you know you're in their
prayers.

Special people always know the perfect thing
to do. They can make your whole day just by
saying something that no one else could have
said. Sometimes you feel like they share
with you a secret language that others can't
tune into.

Special people can guide you, inspire you,
comfort you, and light up your life with
laughter. Special people understand your moods
and nurture your needs, and they lovingly know
just what you're after.

When your feelings come from deep inside and
they need to be spoken to someone you don't
have to hide from, you share them . . . with special
people. When good news comes, special people are
the first ones you turn to. And when feelings
overflow and tears need to fall, special people
help you through it all.

Special people bring sunlight into your life.
They warm your world with their presence,
whether they are far away or close by your side.

Special people are gifts
that bring happiness,
and treasures
that money can't buy.

--
Anne Bahrin